Im 18 i started self harming around 2 years ago and stopped for like a more than half a year but i started again last may. i dont do it that often, like i have some phases where ut gets worse and its in these times but i can sometimes spend more than a month without cutting at all. but recently like two weeks ago i got a boyfriend. im really happy abt it ofc but its all new and ofc i dont want him to see this side of me. ive been great these past months so my arms seemed pretty normal but sunday was a horrible day and i cut a lot and now my arms are a mess. with my boyfriend these past weeks we've often been taking our shirts off when we're together and it didnt bother me bc i had nothing to hide but yesterday when he wanted to take my shirt off i felt so bad saying no but like my scars were way too visible u could still see blood. he cant see that like im sure he would freak out and leave me. but now im going to his house tmrw again and the day after so knowing we'll spend that much time together ill eventually have to take my shirt off and im so scared like i tried putting concealer on my scars this morning but it doesnt work at all and then i put on big plasters on them that hide everything but then he's definitely gonna ask about the giant plasters on my arms and like its gonna be so embarassing and i cant find any good excuses like i cant say my cat scratched me that big and on both of my arms??? im panicking idk if i should take the plasters off or keep them idk whats worse.