Fess
January, 1 2024 at 11:42 pm

I was in the most loving, caring, supportive, fun, fulfilling, blissful relationship of my life, with my bf of 2.5 years who lives with bipolar disorder. I was by his side for several manic and depression episodes and our relationship was still strong as ever. I saw myself spending the rest of my life with him, through the good and the bad.
Suddenly, on Christmas Day before we were meant to go to my parents for dinner I messaged him to see if I could come pick him up and I got a reply saying he is done with me, and blocked me on everything before I could respond. His message said he has gone through my phone, doesn’t like that I’m still friends with a ex who had texted me so he’s done with me and will find a new home for our dog. A week before he had expressed support for me being friends with this ex and we discussed boundaries.
I spent a week fighting with the person he gave the dog too and finally got my dog back (thank god) , but still no word from him. I am in a world of pain right now and the uncertainty of not knowing if he is ok, was this premeditated, is there someone else ect, is killing me. But despite all the pain, I am still greatful I got to experience a love like that in my life. After 2.5 years we were still in the honeymoon period. I think living with bipolar may have given him some really good qualities too - passion, creativity, empathy, compassion, understanding of mental health. I’m heartbroken, but I would not take back the relationship for anything.